You know, now that I've finally made the decision to stop manipulating (and for day 2, I'm not doing too bad) and just be and let things happen, I must say I feel pretty good. I ain't nobody's lover... I ain't nobody's I'm gonna be your forever... I'm just being me. I like it. I try not to get my hopes up too much because I know there will be a backslide and I'll feel like a failure if I don't recognize that this is going to be a long process. A slow process that I just need to embrace and deal with. I have felt, however, a lot less stress for the last day or so. I'm never going to be 100%. I recognize that I am broken... but not beyond repair. I'll never be brand new again. I lost that a long time ago. The hurt is trying to leave.
One little baby step at a time. That's all I have right now... I guess that's all I really need.
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