And Now You're Gone

I had planned on having a year to figure all of this out...
See what happens when I make plans?
I didn't anticipate Pops dying.  It was the farthest thing from my mind...  Of course, that's a lie.  I felt it too long ago to be comfortable with it.  What I didn't think through was how quickly you'd just up and leave.  There wasn't even a question.  "I'm going to go spend a couple of days at dad's" turned into a moving party apparently.  It's the hardest thing I've ever had to go through thus far in my life to lose your dad.  I wasn't ready to lose you both at the same time.  I just never thought that was the way it would happen... I just never really thought about my life without you being the biggest part of it...  Even since we've been apart, you've still been there.  We were still cool and we were still kinda Ames and Jess... I'm pretty sure those days are gone now... Please tell me we're not completely through.  Please tell me that you and I will always be in each others lives.  I can't bear the thought of you 'dying' too.  I think I'd have to die with you...